Loneliness is a choice.
It’s hard for me to accept the fact that the some of the origins of my anger issues comes from something that is my own choice. It is a decision that I make from time to time.
Yes, I choose to feel alone.
There are certainly time when I was rejected, when I was told I was not good enough. Obviously being treated unfairly is not my fault, and we all have experienced this type of hurt. Relationships and friendships are messy at best.
So what is my point? What I am saying is this: it is wrong for me to allow this hurt to hurt all my relationships after the fact. There is an old saying which kind of explains this: “hurt people hurt people.” And I do not want to perpetuate any more hurt.
I want to say that even with past hurts, I have close friends who love me and accept me for me.
If I have friends that accept me, then why do I feel lonely? Have you ever ask that question? It’s a tough question for me. I’d rather blame someone else, whether it is a girl who won’t acknowledge my existence, or a hard-to-please boss, or a distant friend. Yet, the question remains: why are you angry Joe?
I’m just trying to keep it real here. Sometimes, it is my own choice, and I need to own that to overcome it. If you feel the same way, then we understand each other, even if it is only in small way. Kind of like, two people looking at the same star.
-js
